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Friday, July 25, 2014

Darkness

If you are FB friends with my husband, you have already heard the news, but for those of you who are not, it is with immense grief and sadness that I share that we have lost the baby.

My water broke a week ago, but the baby still had a strong heartbeat, so they sent me home to see what would happen.  Unfortunately, the follow-up sonogram on Monday showed the heartbeat was gone and the baby had died over the weekend.

Monday I was induced and delivered a tiny baby boy, who we named Nicolas Daniel.  The pain and heartbreak is indescribable.

I am thankful that we do have the joy of Elise's involvement with the bionic pancreas trial to focus on, and I will do my best to post updates.

Thank you to all who sent messages via FB, or email.  I have read every single one of them with tears in my eyes, knowing that we are loved.


22 comments:

  1. We don't know each other, I'm just another T1D mom who reads your blog. But my heart is hurting for you. We've had loss too, and so I send my {{{hugs}}}.

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  2. So sorry :( Really wish there was something that could be said to take all of your sadness away, but I know there isn't. Take care of YOU. Thoughts and prayers with your family.

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  3. ((HUGS)) Much love sent your way from this little corner of the world

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  4. GOD bless you. I'm sooo sorry for your loss. I've lost five, not full-term though..I can't imagine your grief and heartache. Please know our family will be praying for yours, my heart is heavy for you right now. : (

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  5. Will keep your family and little Nicholas Daniel in my prayers.

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  6. There are no words, just love and hugs.

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  7. I am so sorry, Jo. All my thoughts, prayes and love heading your way.

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  8. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you gentleness in your time of grief.

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  9. I am so sorry for your loss. Take time to heal.

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  10. I am so sorry for your family.

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  11. Words are insufficient, but know that many others, myself included, will be keeping your family in our hearts and wishing you peace. I am so, so sorry for your loss.

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  12. I"m so, so sorry, Jo. I was so thrilled to FINALLY meet you in person and I'm sending those IRL hugs your way right now. Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you. Much love...

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  13. My eyes are tearful and my heart is breaking for you all during this most difficult time. May Nicolas Daniel's light shine through the darkness you are now feeling. Know many hugs and prayers are being sent your way always. Godspeed little
    man, Sweet dream little man...xoxo

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  14. I'm so sorry. :( Hugs, thoughts and prayers.

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  15. I am so sorry for your loss. Nicolas Daniel is a beautiful name for a little angel now watching over you from heaven.

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  16. I have thought of you and prayed for you often this week. And so much going on for your sweet family. Just know that I will continue to pray for you!

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  17. I am very sad for you Jo Ann. Please know my thoughts are with you.

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  18. Jo, how my heart hurts for you. I wish there was a way to ease the pain.
    Nicholas Daniel, beautiful. You are very loved. Your precious family is so loved.

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  19. Oh Joanne I am so sorry to hear your news - sending huge cyber hugs to you and Fred and a special hug for your pioneering little girl. Best wishes Amanda

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  20. I've been thinking a lot about your family ever since meeting you at FFL, and have marveled in the strength of you, Fred, and Elise as she participated in the bionic pancreas trial. I am very saddened by your loss of Nicolas, who would have no doubt been a sweet addition to your beautiful family. Praying for the love of your family and your DOC community to lift you up in this time of grief.

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  21. I am only tonight catching up on my reading and I am broken hearted to read this post both for you and your beautiful family. No words of ours can console or comfort at this time but we are holding ye in our thoughts. Chris and Mary.

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  22. (Continued) I will be thinking of you and Nicholas Daniel.

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