Since Elise was diagnosed, we've met more and more adults within our circle of influence who also have type 1 diabetes. Some were diagnosed as kids, and some later on in life. But the curious and somewhat frightening similarity in almost of of them is their lack of control of the disease and their general attitude of "it's no big deal".
One person (who was type 2, and is now type 1), often forgets to eat. Another doesn't check her BG throughout the day. One guy eats as few carbs with his meal as he can, so he doesn't have to take as much insulin. I was a little horrified when he told me what he typically eats as a meal. There is no way he can be getting proper nutrition. Another person purposefully keeps herself high because she is so fearful of passing out. When I asked her if she was worried about complications, she had no idea of the long-term ramifications of having a high BG all the time.
This was sort of a wake up call for me. I guess I always though most people would approach their care the same way I would; in an anal-retentive, control-freak sort of way. I know I don't have D, but my daughter was 12 months old when she was diagnosed, so that's the next closest thing (and I know, I don't endure the pain of multiple shots and BG test a day, but having to do it to your baby is pain on a whole other level).
And it got me thinking... What if, when Elise is older, she becomes lackadaisical with her care? What if she suffers from diabulimia in her teenage years? What if she forgets eat? What if, as a rebellious young adult, she decides that she enjoys getting drunk? What if she refuses to test herself before driving? What if, what if, what if?
I know as her Mom, I can only do so much. The best that I can do is lovingly show her how to care for herself, all the while instilling in her how important this care is for her life. And hopefully she will have the maturity, pride and courage to do what is right. But the "what ifs" still nag at me, causing me to lay awake at night imagine all sorts of terrible scenarios. I guess it's just my control-freak nature, rearing it's ugly head.
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