I've been noticing that other Mom's that have kids around Elise's age are starting to check out Preschools. I haven't even thought about it, much less done any research because it seems to me that it's just not an option for us.
As much as I love my daughter, I think having a few hours a week to myself would be lovely. Because I'm selfish like that. But I'm guessing her having diabetes makes it a moot point, right? I mean, the only time we leave her in the nursery at church is when one of her one-on-one buddies can be there with her. And that's only for just over an hour, once a week. I'm guessing that preschools don't have that kind of care.
I have never been away from her for more than a few hours since her dx, and we don't have anyone here that knows how to care for her. I am so burnt out right now that I can't help but be jealous of the other Moms who have this option.
All I want for Elise is to live a normal life, and not be denied experiences because of her diabetes. I don't want to use diabetes as an excuse as to why she can't do something. Although I do realize that at this point in her life, it's a reality for us because of how little she is.
And perhaps the reason I want this so bad for her, is because I really want it for me. And that makes me feel like a bad Mom.
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