Monday, September 6, 2010

Trying not to think about what day it is

Two years ago today we went to Elise's pedi to do a follow-up urine test.

Two years ago today we were getting things ready for Elise's first birthday party.

Two years ago today, Elise's second urine test came back positive for sugar, so we were sent to the ER to do a blood draw (it was late on a Saturday and nothing else was open to do a blood draw on a 12 month old).

Two years ago today we were in the middle of Elise's birthday party when Elise's pediatrician called with the news; Elise had Type 1 Diabetes and we needed to take her to the hospital ASAP.

What followed were 4 days of hospital hell, and months (and months, and months) filled with guilt, anger, despair and sadness.

We actually almost forgot what day it was, until my Mom was filling out Elise's log and said the date aloud as she was writing it down. Last year, we forgot. I was sort of hoping it would happen that way again.

But then I would missing out on being able to see just how far we have come. I wouldn't be able to be so thankful for the friendships and the wonderful people I have met. I couldn't marvel at the vast amounts of knowledge I have accumulated (and how much I STILL don't know). There is so much to look back and reflect upon.

So today I think I will be thankful for the fact that for the last 4 days, Elise numbers have ranged from 80 to 208 (and yeah, I'm tempting fate AGAIN by writing about it, but it's just too delicious to keep to myself).

I will be grateful that Fred and I got to go out to a movie this morning, and Elise didn't even raise an eyebrow as we left her at home with Grandma.

I will be excited about the new life that is going to be coming into this world at about noon CST tomorrow, and how he will wonderfully and dramatically change our lives.

And I will especially be grateful for all of you... who have laughed with me, cried with me, carried me when I couldn't do it by myself, and cheered me on when all was going so well.

Thank you for walking with us on this journey


  1. Happy diaversary and kudos to you for looking at the positives in life.

    It wasn't until the third diaversary that I didn't reach the day without dread. Not that there wasn't sadness, but I was able to feel happiness too, that Caleb had lived three great years and managed his diabetes well. Year 3 was a turning point as far as diaversaries go for us.

  2. Happy diaversary Elise!

    Above all else remember that it was two years ago today that your beautiful sweet girls life was saved, Jo... THAT is something to celebrate! =)

    Along with that celebration... Holy Moley!!! Those are fantastic numbers!!! Congratulations on that! And Congrats on the new life you will be bringing into the world tomorrow! I can't wait to see pictures!!! =)

  3. Happy Daversary Elise!
    I think that in the future this day may be forgotten because of the wonderful celebrations that will go on all in this same week. After tomorrow, you will have 2 blessings... and both of them will fill this week with happiness every year.

    With any luck, the "other" think will eventually get squished in between :)

  4. I am sooo happy to be on this journey with you... and I am inspired by your positive nature. I think it took me a good 3 years to be "good" with it all.

    I am so freakin' excited for you!!! I will be thinking of you tomorrow afternoon dear one.

    LOVE YOU!!!

  5. Happy Diaversary! I am so thankful to have people like you who have been on this journey longer than me and whose blogs encourage me so much! I'll be thinking about you and praying for a great delivery tomorrow. I can't wait to see pics of your handsome little man!

  6. Happy Diaversary dearest Joanne! Look how far you've come....and you've done it so well. With humor and grace. So proud of you and am excited to hear the news of the latest edition in your family! Many blessings!

  7. Happy Diabirthday to Elise! And congratulations to you both on how far this journey has taken you and how you've embraced it. Good luck tomorrow, Joanne! I'll be thinking of you and praying for it all to go perfectly!

  8. Good luck tomorrow! Can't wait to see pictures of the little guy!

  9. Happy Diaversary to an awesome family of ALMOST 4!!! I just mentioned to J the other day that we passed his diaversary last month without even thinking about it. ((HUGS)) to you on this day my friend. I'm blessed to call you my friend...and since I missed talking with you this week...good luck tomorrow! My thoughts and prayers will be with your family!!

  10. I can't believe it's tomorrow!!!!!

    I can't believe the history we have with our blogs.

    I can't believe how the time keeps ticking.

    I'll be praying for you. I can't wait for a picture!!!!!

  11. Time just keeps flying by doesn't it? I love how you embrace the positive. I will be sending you lots of love tomorrow. Congratulations!

  12. Time just keeps flying by doesn't it? I love how you embrace the positive. I will be sending you lots of love tomorrow. Congratulations!

  13. Happy D-day! I think everyone's beginnings sucked in some ways or others, but it's not how we reacted on day one that's important, but how we've lived since.

    I hope everything goes well with the delivery! Congrats!

  14. I used to dread days like this, too, when memories of the diagnosis come rushing back again. But the more time passes, the more your perspective changes. You begin to stop thinking of it as the day when your life stopped spinning, but as the day when a big challenge was given to you and of how far you have gone since that day.
    Happy anniversary!


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