Well... I'm a little embarrassed. After almost 3 1/2 years of dealing with this disease, you'd think I would know better by now.
I need to stop paying attention to the man behind the curtain.
Diabetes is always there. Pushing buttons and pulling levers. Making a lot of noise that scares the poop outta me, but in the end really amounts to nothing.
Those crazy lows we were having? They have exited stage left. Well, mostly. We're still not back to Elise's normal insulin consumption. It's a little more than half, and being tweaked daily (not abiding by the 3 day rule this time).
I appreciate everybody that took the time to comment or email me (and if you did email me, I'm sorry I haven't responded... life is ca-razy right now). I looked long and hard at Elise's numbers, but just couldn't agree that it was her basals. Her lows would ALWAYS come 1 1/2 to 2 1/2 hours after eating. When I manually cut her bolus in half, she would be okay. If she didn't eat, she stayed level.
Of course, almost as soon as I changed her settings, she swung back the other way.
What ticks me off is that I KNOW that this (weird and wacky things) happens with D. And I KNOW it will go back to "normal" at some point. So WHY do I always wring my hands and freak out the second D starts blowing smoke? And drag all of you through my crazy by posting about it?
I guess it's therapeutic for me to spew crazy on my blog. That way, I don't lie awake at night obsessing about it over and over. And, I always appreciate the support and insight I get when you guys leave comments.
And while I'm still going to run to my blog and regale all of you with the latest ways diabetes is making me coo-coo bananas, my new mantra is going to be "pay no attention to the D behind the curtain". And I'm counting on you to yell it at me the next time diabetes throws me a curve ball.
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