Monday, December 21, 2009

A close call

Although our room is only about 20 feet down the hall from Elise's room, I still use a baby monitor so I can hear her if she needs me during the night. We keep her door open only a crack, and ours is closed completely so that when Fred's alarm goes off at 5:15 am, it doesn't wake her up. This makes it almost impossible to hear her if I don't have the monitor on.

On Sunday morning, Fred got up with Elise so that I could sleep in, and he turned off the monitor so that they wouldn't disturb me while he was getting her dressed. And last night, I forgot to turn it back on. You see where this is going, right?

I was having one of my bizarre dreams around 4:30 am, when something jolted me from my sleep. I mean, JOLTED. I jumped out of bed and told my husband, "something's wrong!" I immediately thought of Elise, but couldn't hear anything. Then I realized the monitor was still off.

"Crap-on-a-stick!" Says I (yes, that's my go-to bad word), turning on the monitor. And that''s when I hear Elise moaning and saying she wants some food. My stomach dropped.

When we checked her at midnight, she was 190, a number we thought was good enough to get her to morning. Obviously not, since she was 59. We got some food into her, and put her back to bed. About 30 minutes later, she was 105.

I don't know how long she cried for us, but it kills me that she waited any amount of time for us to come. She probably felt so scared, lying there in the dark; calling for us and nobody answered her. It hurts, but I'm glad my "Mommy-sense" was working well enough to know that something was wrong; even in the depths of a dream.

Checking to see if the baby monitor is on; just one more thing to add to the bedtime routine.


  1. Joanne see you and she got through it just okay and all is well . she will be fine and she wont remeber this , that is the nice part of it . Take care and you are an awesome mom and dont beat yourself up over it . take care dear .

  2. Jesus knocked on your heart...I'm sure He was beside her the entire time. I'm sure she felt secure, loved, and comforted...don't beat yourself up.

    You dun good, my friend...and your baby is thriving :)

  3. What is going on with the D lately?

    Same thing happened to us the other night... I thought Justin would make it through and... NOPE~ not so much!

    She probably only called you once or twice before your supermom hearing power woke you up :) Don't stress about it and I hope everything goes back to the norm soon.

  4. You did good Joanne...and she's okay!!! I second Wendy...He was there and I swear our little ones' guardian angels work overtime making sure they're okay!!
    Get some rest today...I'm convinced that sleep makes everything better!!!

    Oh....and I had a crazy vivid dream last night....what's up with that???

  5. Bless your heart! (((HUGS))) You know, the jolt out of your sleep could have been you subconsciously hearing her call for you. So she probably didn't cry very long for you :) We're only human and you're doing an amazing job, girlfriend!!!

    There is not a single night that I don't double check the baby monitor to make sure I can hear Kacey...yep, and she's almost 10 years old! I bought a set when she was diagnosed because I couldnt rest knowing she was on the other side of the house. They are my "lifeline" to her...literally! LOL and to think that I never had a set of them when either of the girls were babies!

    Keep up the good work!!!!

  6. You did a good job!! She knows you love her and didn't abandon her! It's ok...hard yes, but you did great!! That mommy instinct has woken me up on more than one occasion when Syd needed me. Her room is on the other side of the house. 2 nights ago she was 157 at 10. At midnight I felt like i needed to check her. She was 44. Crazy!

  7. It has happened to me so many times...It's our gaurdian angels.

    There was a reason you woke guilt allowed! You were awesome!

    And Crap on a stick? Come on...I can't believe you came up with an adorable bad word...only you could get away with that!

  8. Well Jo,
    Any one can be a parent, most are good parents but no one is perfect. Just wait until Gramma gets there, we'll have some good times.

  9. Ha! Crap on a stick is MY saying too..and Addison has been known to repeat it!! The momma instinct never did great.

  10. Geez, Joanne! It's never a dull moment at your house! Don't feel guilty - you've got to be exhausted and you DID wake up and you are doing an amazing job taking care of your little girl! No guilt allowed!

  11. Aw how sad! I'm sure we've all been there. Felt guilty over one thing or another. That's awesome that you just knew something was wrong though!


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